Honestly, I’m approaching this year with caution. Last year was enough. The one thing I cant get my head around, is that it’s (a new year) seen and celebrated as a ‘new start’, but really it isn’t.. is it? I mean what changes at the strike of midnight? The problems you had yesterday, don’t just disappear – I’m not the only one who’d like that eh?! The way I see it is, If things are not resolved by the 31st of December you’re carrying that crap on, into this ‘new’ year, so how can one be excited about the year ahead, with things still looming over you? Really, it’s just a change in the date. With how my mind works, I cannot seem to move past things, unless theres some sort of result/end. For instance, I’m still reeling from a personal situation that happened over some time, and I’m currently awaiting some answers. So for me personally, I cannot look ahead to anything this year! I have so much to be excited and happy about. But I cannot seem to allow myself to get excited or happy until, the things that need resolving, are resolved. Don’t get me wrong, I’d love to be like ‘most people’, and put things towards the back of my mind and ‘worry about it when the time comes’, but I can’t do that. As frustrating as it is (for not just myself), that’s how my brain works. Know knowing I’m autistic, I’m trying to accept the fact that, things like this I cannot change about myself. I find that one of the hardest pills to swallow. So in a nutshell, I cant celebrate 2025 and the glorious things I have ahead of me, until I’ve sorted out last years problems!

To anyone who may of had a rubbish year, (and who didn’t deserve it) I hope that the year ahead is the one where you make your ‘come back’ and achieve anything you put your mind to! I hope this is the year where everyone gets exactly what they deserve and you end this year on a much better note, stronger, happier and healthier!

T